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Saturday, December 31, 2011

Spring Chick Challenge

I have never signed up for a challenge like this before and it took me a couple of days to decide whether I wanted to or not...But I figured what the hell...the only thing I have to lose is (hopefully) pounds and inches! Soooo here goes my introduction I guess (feel free to skip this if you know me, this is for any new followers I get or have gotten recently that don't "know" me yet!)



My name is Taryn, I'm a 25 year old, registered nurse at a long term care facility, from a small town in south eastern British Columbia. I'm fat...there's no other way to put that I guess. My weekly weigh in will be tomorrow (completely by accident that my weigh in happened to land on New Years Day). I'm fully expecting to see a gain tomorrow as I've eaten like CRAP and have not worked out this week...awful I know, but I blame work! We've had a rocky and emotional past couple weeks where we've had a few...read 6...of our beloved residents pass away, a few who are actively passing away and just last night I sent one of our residents to hospital after a fall and she has broken her hip...and at 89 years old, they don't usually recover from that. I know that these are excuses and I need to make time to focus on myself, so that's what I think this challenge will help me do. I will be starting the new year out right.

I don't have twitter, nor do I link my personal facebook to my blog very often, so I'm going to leave that part out.

OK on to the required topics...

My NSV - To finish my C25K program
Exercise - To exercise at least 4 days per week. This will include a combo of C25K workouts, Zumba, walking and my new ifit chips for my treadmill.
Nutrition - To track my food intake in a food journal and bump up my H20 intake (and to not skip breakfast because I'm too busy!)

I will post my starting weight tomorrow and my goal weight will to be 250lbs which will be approximately 40lbs down in 3 months (ambitious I know but shoot for the sky I say!)

So that's me...I hope to get to know all of you and that we are all successful this next few months!!! Here we go!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas To All

Well everybody, I had an amazing Christmas. Last night I went to my in-laws and hung out with the family there. We had turkey dinner (I had a plate with all white meat, and honestly didn't eat that much) and had only had a few appys before that. I'm certain I was well below my calorie limit. It was so much fun watching the little one open her presents from grandma, grandpa, auntie, uncle and great-grandpa. We visited, laughed and had a great time and then headed home to get the house ready for Santa.

We put out milk and cookies and carrots for the reindeer then the kiddo headed to bed and actually went down with less trouble than usual. I had sooooo much fun playing Santa! We were up bright and early this morning and when we woke the kid up telling her that Santa had come she nearly shot through the wall she got out of bed so fast!

Now to tell you what I got! Chris is amazing and got me the Jillian Michaels 3 step program on ifit for the treadmill! Soooo excited to try it (not tonight...I've made about 50 trips up and down the stairs packing presents up). I also got a satellite radio for my car and the boombox for the house. We got a food processor, cash to help us buy a living room set, the Lion King on bluray, gift cards, a scarf, bakeware, etc, etc, etc...I got really spoiled! I deserve it though...I was REALLY good this year! HAHAHA.

Here are a few pictures (including some of our Christmas lights, sorry they are kinda dark, still learning how to use my new camera!)



Front Entrance


Our Whole Front Porch

Just After Setting Up The Tree


After Santa Came


After Opening Presents


Saturday, December 24, 2011

Weigh In #18

No loss this week but also no gain (which is a bloody miracle). I'm exactly the same weight as last week...290.6lbs. I hope everybody has a merry Christmas and that you celebrate responsibly.

Friday, December 23, 2011

Another Day Another Dollar

I've completely had it with work this week. Just one day I would like my shift to go smoothly. Last night everything was going swimmingly and  I was even trying to get some stuff done for the nurse that was going to have an admission this morning. As I was sitting there doing some of the paperwork, the LPN I work with walks up beside me and whispers in my ear that another of our residents had passed. That's the 3rd in less than 48 hours...and the worst part was that they were all out of the same cottage.

It's not the actual work that's exhausting at all. It's the mental part. Having to say goodbye to people that you have cared for, become to love and have essentially become part of your family is draining. You develop a relationship with each and every one of them and then to have to do your job and attempt to turn off those emotions is harder than you know. Yes, it's part of the job, and yes that's what I signed on for, but it doesn't make it easy. So anyways, that's been my week so far. I have 1 more shift tonight and then I'm off for 3 (I took an extra this week coming...what was I thinking!?)

There will be a short post tomorrow with a weigh in so look for that. I hope everybody that is setting out on their holiday travels is safe.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

This feels good!

I just finished Week 2 Day 2 of C25K and I'm absolutely exhausted...and it feels great!!!! I am growing to like the feeling of tired muscles and sweat dripping. However, I don't feel as though I gave it 100% tonight. I don't think I have 100% to give at all today. I have had an absolutely hellish week so far at work...and I'm only half done.

Yesterday I was so busy I didn't even get a break and today was only slightly better. I started my day off at 4:45 when I woke up and then realized I still had a half hour to sleep...but I knew if I fell asleep for the half hour I'd feel like crap when my alarm went off. When I got to work I was surprised to learn that all the residents that are currently in the process of passing away were still with us but another had taken a turn for the worse (it's the time of year...nursing homes see an influx of deaths in December/January and July/August). I got going with my day...and half way through doing morning pills I got a call that the resident who took a turn for the worse had passed away and I had to go pronounce him, do the death certificate, call the doctor and the family, etc, etc, etc. By the time I got back to finishing my pills I was nearly an hour behind schedule...and I had an admission that came before I was finished. Finally at 12:30 I got to sit down and eat some soup.

Needless to say that by the time I got home I was done, but I still pushed myself to do my workout. And thank goodness I did. Now I'll sleep better, feel better, and most importantly, can do a different workout tomorrow!

I'm soooo looking forward to my work week being over. And of course for Santa to get here. Chris has been teasing me with what my present is for what seems like forever now...and I wanna know!! HAHAHA...I got him an awesome present though...its a.......



Oooops...sorry honey, I almost forgot you read my blog *wink*

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

How Chris Hurt His Own Feelings...

Ok so funny story...Chris has gotten me in to a show called "The Walking Dead". It's basically a show about some people who are attempting to survive in a world that has gone to hell in a hand basket and is populated with zombies or "walkers"...Anyways, this small group of people has found another small group of people that are living on a farm and are relatively untouched by the wrath of the walkers...or so we think. One day a guy and a girl go from the farm into the little town to get some supplies from the local pharmacy. Now, we've been here before (in fact, said guy and girl did the horizontal hokey pokey in the same pharmacy a few episodes before this one)...Now I must digress really quickly to tell you that I have told Chris at least 30,000 times that he needs to tell me if something is going to pop out at me or a really loud noise might scare me because I really really don't like that...anyways, this happens....The video of the scene is right below...beware it's graphic and will scare the pants off you!




Anyways...At the exact same time (as if I wouldn't be scared enough) Chris's arm shot across the couch to scare me...Well I burst into tears (I told you, I really really hate that feeling!) but Chris thought I was laughing and he thought it was HILARIOUS...until he saw the tears and then he felt bad. He comforted me while I got my heart beat back under control...and he said something that was so funny...that seeing me cry hurt his feelings...But seeing as how he's the one who made me cry...he hurt his own feelings! And that, folks, is hard to do! He's a talented man...must be why I love him so much :)

Anyways, seeing as how this is a weight loss blog I guess I should do a quick update on that. I was not feeling the greatest yesterday so I pretty much just took it easy. I went down onto the treadmill and attempted a C25K but I got a mile in and was just over it. I had to stop. I have eaten fairly well. and today I was so stinkin busy at work (1 of my residents passed away last night so I had to deal with the funeral home, family, etc, etc, etc, 3 people fell, it was doctors day, I had a care conference for a new resident who is a lot dramatic, I still had to do my job that keeps me busy on a normal day, and 5 people are actively palliative at this point....I didn't sit down, I didn't eat lunch, I ran my butt off...so I'm going to go to bed early tonight and I will do my C25K run tomorrow! 

Hope everybody is having a good week and is ready for Christmas! And if you haven't already watch The Walking Dead!!!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Maybe I CAN Do This!

Today was the day I had to face my fear and attempt week 2 of my C25K program. I was more than a little worried. I had trouble running for 1 minute and now they were bumping me up to having to run for a minute and a half...nice wish you devil of an app you...but I promised myself I would at least attempt it before resigning myself to repeating week one. Looking back on my blogs I re-read one where I had underestimated myself with a challenge I gave myself at the beginning of this journey and I was determined to not let this happen yet again. So downstairs I went, iPod in hand, strapped on my lovely New Balance runners (the best running shoes in my humble opinion), and hopped on the treadmill. I did my 5 minute warm up walk and as I watched the time tick down to the beginning of the first 1.5 minute run interval I got a little panicky. The little dude said "start running now" I cussed and started running. I completed week 2 day 1 and was actually kinda surprised at how...dare I say easily I progressed through the intervals. That's not saying I didn't find it challenging but I felt as though I pushed and pushed and just when I felt like I couldn't push anymore, it was the end of the interval and it was time to walk. Here's my week 2 sweaty picture! Pardon the gross hair and no makeup!


Still smiling!

I looked at some other C25K programs which are 9 weeks, and the one I'm doing is an 8 week program so I'm thinking it's going to push me to progress faster. Which is OK with me, because I'm completely open to repeating weeks if I need to. I'm not in a race. I'm in this to change my life and push myself beyond what I thought I could do. I'm in this to prove something to myself. I could care less what other people think of me. I am me and I'm pretty proud of the person I've turned out to be. I'm an intelligent, educated woman who takes care of a family and a household. I am figuring out how to drop these (many) extra pounds and live healthily and most importantly, I'm being me and doing it MY way. I am not about to limit myself to salad and grilled chicken breast for the next year because I'd probably want to slit my wrists. There's one thing that Katie has said time and time again in her blog, to not make any changes you aren't willing to live with for the rest of your life. Am I willing to commit to never ever eating another cupcake in my life? Nope! So why would I say that while I'm on this journey I'm never allowed to eat a cupcake. As long as it's not a daily thing and I don't go completely overboard and eat properly 99% of the time and continue to work out, there's no point in beating myself up for it.

Now to clarify my last post about my weigh in. I did write this in a comment on that post but I know everybody may not have read it. I was absolutely devastated because I had peeked at the scale earlier in the week and had seen 288.8 (which would have been a 3.1 lb loss), so I was expecting to at least see that as I had continued to work my butt off the rest of the week. So that's why I was upset. But I need to look at the bright side and recognize that 1.3 lbs is still awesome! Just imagine 1.3 lbs of butter that is no longer on my body! I have now lost over 25lbs and am on my way to my next goal marker! And no matter how long it takes, I will make it!

Thank you all for your love and support! You all definitely have my recommendation to be on Santa's nice list!

Friday, December 16, 2011

Weigh In #17

So I'm thoroughly disappointed. I only lost 1.3 lbs this week. I'm now at my lowest weight so far on this journey of 290.6 lbs. I'm not happy because I worked so hard. Gonna go wallow in self pity now.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Week 1 Done!

I have to say I am awesome. I have stuck to the C25K program for a week (yes all of you who have done it and know that the worst is yet to come can laugh now and shake your head). This is a really big deal to me as so far I start out the workout excited and then by half way through I'm cursing myself for starting it and wanting to quit. I find that if I don't really enjoy something I don't want to do it. So...sticking with something that I'm not completely in love with yet is a big deal. I feel like I've done so bad this first week that I'm terrified of next week, but I'm going to take Kristin's advice and at least attempt week 2 before I resign myself to having to start over because I suck (I mean how destructive is that thinking!?). And if I do find that week 2 is undoable for me, I'm not going to be ashamed to have to go back. At least I'm doing this and trying something new and burning calories in the process!

Today I have really worked my butt off so far. I went outside and shovelled our driveway (all in all took me about a half hour), then immediately went down to do the C25K, and I will soon be heading up to get ready for work. I have worked out more than I ever have so far (5 days this week!!!) and I have eaten just as I have been since starting this journey. Unfortunately because I work tonight I can't go to Zumba and I'm sad. So I should see some results....right? Tomorrow is weigh day and seeing as how I've done pretty much everything I can, I should see some results on the scale...right? Well here's hoping and I will post about that tomorrow. Have a great day everybody!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Jesus, Mary And Joseph...

...and I ain't making a Christmas reference. I just finished day 2 of the C25K and I swear it's gonna kill me. I got a stitch in my side after the 3rd run interval and I just wanted to be done. But I pushed through and finished it...and here's a sweaty picture to prove it (nothing beats your head itching because there's sweat dripping through your hair)...


Don't adjust your computer screens, my face really was that red
I gotta say that I look damn good for just working out after getting up at 5am and working an 8 hour day!
Haha. Although, you can see the bags under my eyes. Anyways, back to the topic at hand...

I'm not sure how I feel about this program yet. I find it fun and challenging but I really think I'm going to have a love-hate relationship with it. I'm not sure that I'll be ready to progress to week 2 when I'm supposed to. I might have to do week 1 once (or twice) more. I thought I was getting more fit....I mean, give me an hour long Zumba class and I can breeze through it fairly easily but this is hard for me. I could walk on the treadmill for like 4 hours straight if i wanted to (but who would want to?!). But I find running for 1 minute difficult. I hope I look back on this post in 8 weeks and shake my head because by that point I'm able to run for a half hour straight but it just seems so far out of reach right now. However, that does not mean I'm going to give up. I am going to finish this program if it kills me...which it just might.

Tomorrow I think I'm going to do day 1 again just to get a workout in, then it's on to day 3 on Thursday followed by a Friday weigh in...here's hoping that I see some big results on the scale or I might just lose my damn mind!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Take A Deep Breath And....ZUMBA!!!

Ok kids...As a fat girl, I obviously have some confidence issues. I totally don't like being in social situations where I don't know anybody. That being said...I had a huge NSV today. I went to Zumba even though I knew none of my friends were going. I was nervous but I still went. THEN to make a scary situation even more awful....it wasn't my regular Zumba instructor and I didn't know most of the routines....SHIT. But I hung around (I mean I'd paid for the class so I'd better stay!) and I actually had fun and got my sweat on...how could I not when the first song was "sexy and I know it" by LMFAO.

I'm actually quite proud of myself for staying for the class. Even though I really just wanted to leave. I just really really didn't wanna have to do a C25K tonight haha. I'm soo tired. My sleep is really affected by the moon phases and we just had a full moon the other night so I haven't been sleeping much lately. Last night it took me until at least midnight to fall asleep, then I woke up when Chris came to bed, then I was pretty much up from them on...and WIDE awake before my alarm was set to go off at 5:15am. I hope to hell I sleep well tonight. I kinda wanna go to bed now but Harley doesn't seem ready to go to bed...he's busy playing.

A couple people were asking me how the C25K is and basically all I can say is "we'll see". I did Day 1 twice. I can make it through a Zumba class for an hour at a fairly high intensity level but ask me to run for 1 minute and by the end of it I'm definitely counting down the seconds until I can start walking again. Hopefully the gradual increase really helps me build up endurance. I know for a fact my endurance is a LOT better than it used to be. I could barely walk 500ft up a hill on day 1. But now I can take on youbitch hill (look back to my first posts if you don't know what that is!), come home and still have energy to do whatever I need to do. It's not a big deal anymore. I love getting sweaty. Yeah you feel all gross but its a good gross. I never used to be this girl...what the hell?! But I'm glad I'm this girl now. I like her. I think I'll keep her around for a bit

Check back tomorrow for a C25K update!!!


This is not my class...similar routine though :)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Yum


Mmmm short skinny peppermint mocha. Let the holidays begin. This cup was less than 100 calories!!!

Also, after being out of highschool for nearly 8 years, seeing my grade 11&12 physics teacher scared the bejesus out of me. I automatically went to make an excuse as to why I was late!!!! I don't even live in the same town that I went to highschool in!!!

Today marked the official day 1 of my C25K training. Tomorrow is Zumba. Tuesday is day 2 of C25K.
Life is good!

So yummy!!!

Saturday, December 10, 2011

It's A Nice Day To RUN!!

Alright, I've been talking these past few weeks (and, really, since I started this blog) about starting to run. Well today was that day. I went downstairs to hop on the treadmill for a little bit and actually started doing just that, when I stopped and thought to myself "what the hell are you doing Taryn? You're home, you're already on the treadmill, the app is cheap, why not?". So I quickly downloaded the app and started it. The first 3/4 I was fine but the last 2 runs I was just dreading hearing the music lower and the guy say "run now"...but that's neither here nor there because even though I was tired and just wanted to stop...I didn't. The old me would have said "screw it" and quit but that's not me anymore. I've definitely changed in some big ways. To be honest, the old me would have not even gone downstairs today. I woulda sat on my butt and watched TV and ate, and gone for a 4million calorie Starbucks, and watched more TV. Thank goodness that girl is gone.

I'm feeling so much better after the past week of feeling like crap. My energy is coming back. I am also completely done my Christmas shopping, everything is wrapped and I'm ready. Just to actually get to the day. I think the kiddo is going to be a happy girl...a very happy girl. I'm so excited because we have her Christmas eve and into Christmas day, then to be back at her mom's by 2pm that afternoon. It'll be so much fun!

I hope that everybody is having a great weekend so far, I know I am!

Friday, December 9, 2011

Weigh In #16

Finally I get to post a loss! I currently sit at 291.9lbs (-1.4lbs). It's still not the lowest I've been but at least the scale is moving in the right direction this week. And with how shitty I've been feeling thanks to my damn period, I know I definitely haven't given 100% but that's only to be expected. Boys you are so lucky...seriously. My back KILLED me for 3 days straight. Poor Chris was forced to rub my back (he actually volunteered cuz he's that sweet). I missed Zumba last night. We took the kiddo to get some Christmas portraits done (turned out sooooooo cute!), went for lunch with my grandparents, finished my Christmas shopping...that's right I'm DONE!!!!..., went to see Santa at the mall, came home, made our gingerbread train, made and ate dinner, wrapped presents, then relaxed. Busy day, so it's not like I was sitting on my butt all day haha. Next week will be much better though! I'm determined.

How is everybody else doing with their Christmas shopping!?

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Ugggggh...WTH

Ok...I officially hate mother nature today. Boys, look away, this post ain't for you, trust me. You've been warned.

Ok...As I've posted about before, I have PCOS which is characterized by things like heavy, long, irregular, weird, horrible, awful periods, infertility, weight gain blah blah blah. I have a fairly severe case of it where I'd have a period for 3 months and boy oh boy let me tell you they were heavy...I'd become severely anemic, have absolutely no energy and literally would just want to hide under the covers because I felt so yucky. For most people, starting the birth control pill (BCP) would at least slow down the periods and regulate them somewhat. For me however, I have a genetic disorder that makes blood clots more likely...which of course is one of the side effects of the BCP, so I can't take it. After much discussion with my family doc and a gynecologist, we made the decision to put in an IUD. I got the Mirena IUD put in in February of 2009. It only took a couple months and my periods were "normal" and a couple months after that they STOPPED *angels singing*. Every once in a while I'd get a little spotting, a back ache, bloating, bitchiness, etc, etc, etc...but NOTHING like before. Until 3 days ago...I was spotting a little bit and now I actually have a freakin period and cramps to boot...I forgot how much this sucks!!! it's been over a year since this has happened. I'm crabby and miserable and emotional (Katelyn knows all about that...I unloaded my emotions on to her...good news friend, I know what caused the tears!!!). The only good news is that I was so tired last night I slept like a baby!

So there yah have it...Mother nature sucks, I feel like crap, but I got some sleep! HAHA...

Sunday, December 4, 2011

Exhaustion At It's Finest

Oh my God I don't think I've ever been so tired in my entire life! I don't know what it is but man...It's just past 6pm and I'm struggling to stay awake! I only did 30 minutes on the treadmill (but I did run for part of it...definitely time to download the C25K app). I had a busy day at work. There's a GI outbreak going on so lots of sick people to take care of. And to make it worse...I have to orientate a new nurse tomorrow. UGHHHHH. I swear to God they should pay us more when we have to orientate because it's soo much work! To jam 1 weeks worth of work routine into 8 hours...stupid new people. I'm sure she's lovely and I'll end up liking her but just the thought of the work to train her is making me hate her for now haha.

I gotta say I'm completely obsessed with the salad dressing...I think this is the first time in history I've eaten my whole salad before anything else. I'm actually not a huge fan of salad but salad with THAT dressing I could eat every day. YUM.

Tomorrow is Zumba night again, as long as my flakey friends don't bail yet again. It'll be different as I've never been to a Monday class so we'll see how it goes. Hopefully seeing as how it's the same instructor, the routines will be similar if not the same, otherwise I'm completely screwed. I mean I seriously take uncoordinated to a whole new level. I've been going to Zumba for like 2 months or more and I still forget the steps sometimes. I still have fun though and it's a great way to burn calories!

I got to confess something. I love having a treadmill at home. I really do. But I'm almost regretting telling you all about it because now I feel like I have something to prove. I feel like if I don't have awesome results you will all sit there reading and say "what the hell is wrong with her, she's got no excuses to not lose weight, she's got a freakin treadmill in her basement!". Now I know you aren't like that...I would hope...but now the pressure is on. Probably not a bad thing though. Just a scary feeling.

Do any of you sometimes get all freaked out when you post something on here for all the blogosphere to see...especially when it pertains to your goals?

Friday, December 2, 2011

Weigh In #15

So weigh in was on November 30th and I did weigh in (but just have been too busy to post about it until now). No change. WTF!? Ok...I know I suffered a lovely gastroenteritis (aka the stomach flu) for a good 36 hours in which time the only thing I could stomach without feeling as though I was going to puke was canned soup...um who feels like making soup from scratch when you're sick??...and crackers....which is a HUGE sodium overload. So I was hoping that was the cause. I hopped on the scale again yesterday and it showed a 0.2lb loss, then today it's back to the previous week's weight. So we're going with no loss this week. BOOO.

Now on to the good news. MY TREADMILL IS HERE AND ASSEMBLED AND READY FOR ME TO USE!!!! YAY!!! Thanks mama! I want to attempt doing at least 5kms per day and I want to start the C25K here shortly. And of course Zumba is going to be added in there too.

I have had such a crazy busy past couple days. Wednesday all 3 of us had to be up, showered, dressed, and fed to meet my grandpa to pick up the treadmill, bring that home and get it down into the basement (holy mother of all this is holy that thing is HEAVY), then we had to go to the store to pick up a few Christmas things and make an appointment, then we had to get groceries, then I had to down 1 litre of water and not pee, which is probably the most painful thing I've gone through to date, because I had an ultrasound appointment to check out my ovaries...just keeping an eye on my PCOS, came home made dinner then the kiddo and I baked Christmas cookies. Now let me tell you...after backing about 4 dozen cookies with a 3 year old my kitchen looked as though it had puked a bag of flour, she was COVERED from head to toe in flower, dough, water and sugar, and I was just at the end of my patience with her because she was being a 3 year old and not listening. But we had fun, we got it done and the clean up didn't take THAT long.

Yesterday Chris and I got a chunk of our Christmas shopping done, and I didn't wait until I had a mountain of presents to wrap...I did all I could last night. We also put the treadmill together yesterday...that took a while. Is it just us or are instructions always missing 1 key piece of information and you spend like an hour trying to figure it out but the solution is so simple you're pissed that it took you that long to figure out? Either way it's together!

Today I have plans to clean my entire house so I best get going and get my butt in gear. Hope everybody is having a great day!!!