You have worked so hard to get where you are today. You have put in a lot of effort to get yourself healthy. Hours logged working out, endless salads (I swear you felt like a rabbit a lot of the time), weekly weigh ins, highs, lows, measurements, tears and joy. And every single moment was worth it. Yes it was hard, nobody ever said it would be easy, and you never want to go back to where you were before.
Before you began your journey you were happy personally. You had an amazing family, wonderful boyfriend, sweet stepdaughter, awesome job, but you hated yourself. You were constantly self conscious. You hid from photographs. Everything was hard. You could barely go outside and play with your stepdaughter because it would leave you out of breath. You constantly tried to cover up and camouflage your body (as if it's that easy at over 300lbs). You looked at your body in disdain, constantly thinking of what you wanted to fix and how much better you'd feel without the extra 150 lbs weighing you down. But you didn't believe in yourself. You didn't think you were strong enough to change. You chose feeling good in the moment over feeling good long term. But all that did was make you even sadder.
Then you had a wake up call. You realized that if you continued down this road you would end up dead long before you should. You wouldn't ever be able to have a child of your own. You likely would have had a long and very sick final years. And you didn't want that. You seen first hand the fear and pain that it would cause. So you decided to change. And change you did. Now you are much more comfortable in your skin and have come into your own. You are confident and fit. You no longer have a problem getting outside to play and you enjoy having your picture taken. You deserve to feel accomplished. This is a struggle you will deal with your entire life. But remember that feeling you had every time you hit a weight loss milestone, and feel that way every day. Never take life for granted, because not that long ago you weren't living it.
Yourself (May 12th, 2012)