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Tuesday, June 12, 2012

What Doesn't Kill You...

...Makes you want to kill yourself sometimes. I am exhausted. I am loving my new job. The baby I work with is so sweet and we have more easy and good nights than we do bad nights. The thing is the night shifts. I have NEVER been a night person. I have a bedtime and I usually stick to it because I'm falling asleep. I have fairly healthy sleep habits actually. I consistently get 8 hours of sleep a night, but now I've thrown this huge wrench into my system and have been making myself stay up all night. All would be well and good if I could keep my healthy sleep habits in the day time. I get home at 7:30ish am and sleep until 12 or 1 if I'm lucky, then I try to nap in the evening...sometimes I'm successful and get another few hours of sleep...sometimes I'm not and I lay there awake...It's really a crap shoot. And it doesn't help that I've been working 6 days a week for the past month, as that wasn't the deal when I accepted the job. I said I would work 1 shift one week, 2 shifts the next (in addition to my regular 4 days with my other job), but because I'm the only RN there, I have to supervise and sign off the other caregivers to ensure they're able to properly care for the little peanut on their own. So I have 1 more week of working 6 days, then I get a break and only work 5.

Thank goodness this is worth it financially! I'm going to bite the bullet and just do it for as long as I possibly can to pay off those student loans.

So lets get back to what this blog is supposed to be about. Weight loss. I weighed in this week and am pleased to be back down to 285.9 which brings me back down to 30lbs lost (exactly) which is a 1.3lb loss. Not stellar but at least it's a loss, and with how much I've been working, I honestly haven't been exercising at all, and because I'm just figuring this out and figuring out meals and such, eating hasn't been perfect either (but not bad!). I'm sure that once I get into a routine, things will fall back into place. Even though I'm working like a crazy person, I need to put myself first. And once I have time to take a breath, that will happen. Right now I'm focused on surviving! HAHA.

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Sometimes Miricles Do Happen

While I was on this little hiatus, I ate what I wanted, did what I wanted and basically didn't give a shit about what I was doing. I expected to have a gain (on top of my massive gain) when I weighed in. However, I'm sitting right at where I was at 287.2. Phew...That makes life a LITTLE bit easier. Now it's time to buckle down. It's spring, finally, in Canada so I can actually go outside without the threat of freezing to death...but the possibility of being caught in a downpour is still very real...good thing I'm not the wicked witch of the west and I won't melt if I get wet!

Work is going great. I have been applying for jobs left right and center these days. I absolutely LOVE my job with my old people. They make me laugh and smile on a daily basis and the people I work with are amazing people...But I just don't make enough money there. They don't even have a full time position for an RN there so I'm stuck working about 30 hours a week only. We'll see what happens. It's not in my hands right now. At least I'm lucky enough to have a job. I know that there are lots of people who aren't as fortunate.

This week, Chris and I finally had some time to spend together. Grandma babysat the kid so we were able to have adult conversation! However, our time off was solely focused on the child...We redecorated her room for her! She is absolutely obsessed with Tinkerbell so...seeing as how she already had a bunch of Tinker stuff...we finished off the room. She has purple walls and a Tinkerbell mural on the wall. She also has some Tinkerbell curtains coming. Spoiled little kid! But let me tell you, I now realize just how much of a workout painting is. My muscles are stiff today and I definitely broke a sweat!

Tonight and tomorrow night I work with the baby and then on Tuesday it's back to work with my old people. I'm definitely living a busy life these days but that is not an excuse for slacking off on the things I should be doing. I owe it to myself to lose this weight. I want to be healthy and be able to do the things I want to do! I'm pretty sure Chris and I will be taking a trip to Vegas in November-December and I really really want to ride both the roller coaster at NYNY and the zipline over Freemont St. I will definitely have to be under 250lbs for that. And of course, riding in the airplane will be much more comfortable than it was at 316lbs! And of course walking around Vegas will be much easier on the body. Time to get to work!