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Tuesday, August 14, 2012

I Got The Night Shaft

I really love my job working with the infant I work with...but the nights are killing me. I feel like complete and utter shit following them...and I have 2 this week! I worked last night and will be working again tonight. Then tomorrow I will sleep for a couple hours, get up, either go for a walk with Harley or go on the treadmill then head to the grocery store to get veggies and my new favourite salad. Then I'll come home and roast off some chicken breasts, chop them up and portion them for the week (for my salads). Then it's back to my regular 4 shifts with my oldies...and to top it off...I'm on call on Saturday and Sunday. UGH!!!! I have to remember my goals to get through this next little bit and I think writing them down will help to keep me sane and focused. So here they are for you all to see. These are my 2 main goals to achieve by December.

1) Lose 35lbs (this will allow me to call the life insurance company and tell them to start the clock to count down the 1 year until my premiums will be reduced)
2) Pay off $3000 in debt

I actually slept fairly well after night shift today. I usually am awake by 11:30-12 then will go for a nap from about 5-9:30 but today I slept until about 2:30! I'm still going to try to nap but I probably wont go until about  7 or so. At least I'll get to have dinner with Chris. Just seems with me working so much, and the way our shifts line up, we never see each other any more. Our 3 year anniversary is coming up (in exactly 4 weeks!) and I really want to do something special for us...but he's just getting off night shift and will sleep until I wake him up when I start getting ready to head to work...I know we'll do something but we will likely wait until October or so...but I'd really like to surprise him with something that day...I just don't know what yet...Suggestions welcome.

I have some good news! After 3 and a half weeks of looking at an excavator in my back yard....they finally came back and did the work they were supposed to do. It was feeling as though it was never going to happen. Am I the only one who has the thinking of "finish one project before starting another?"...apparently this contractor doesn't have that philosophy. But any ways, here are some photos of what my backyard looked like before, during and currently:
We put the shed up here to give us a little bit of privacy due to the walkway that runs along our backyard. See the rocks that the contractor used to line the property rather than paying to haul them away...Ugly right?
Yes I know it's not cool to show pictures of snow in August, but this is the only one I had showing this angle of the property...More ugly rocks that take up about 1/4 of the area of our backyard...and with a tiny backyard that's a lot
My poor backyard being dug up to fix the problem that was causing my neighbour's basement to flood
No more rocks! Looks bigger already! The shed was temporarily taken down and it will be moved to a different spot in the yard in preparation for an allen block retaining wall, a fence, and a paving stone patio
It's a hot mess right now but come next spring it'll be GORGEOUS! The fence will be right against the side walk, so our property will expand even a little more.
I absolutely cannot wait to have a space back there that is private (meaning my neighbour's disrespectful children can't use it as a playground and her dog can't use it as a toilet), pretty, relaxing and FINISHED! It'll also be nice to have a fenced area for Harley and the kiddo to play outside in without worrying about them being able to wander off. Not to mention the increase in our property value will be nice! I will definitely be getting some workouts back there because we're going to be a lot of the work ourselves. In the next week or so we're going to start digging out the patio...my muscles hurt at the thought of it already...No pain no gain!


Monday, August 13, 2012

August 12th Weigh In

This is the first weigh in since I've been back on track, counting calories, and basically being serious about weight loss again. I have felt really good this past week and cannot wait to continue on this journey.

I have had a very very busy week...ending off with a double shift at work. After being at work for 15 hours, my feet, hips, and back were crazy sore. Definitely proved to me, yet again, that I have a long way to go. Being on my feet for that long was so hard on my body. I think it would be hard on anybody's body but I could barely get in the car at the end of it! When I got home, I managed to stay awake long enough to watch 1 show with Chris, but I was asleep before my head even hit the pillow! I never sleep in my lounge clothes (sweats and a long sleeved shirt usually, I always change into shorts and a tank top because sleeping with Chris is like sleeping with a furnace!), but I fell asleep as I was and didn't wake up until morning.

Yesterday, we ended up taking the kiddo to not one, but two parks. At the first one she played on the swings for a bit then we took a little walk to the viewpoint there. I've lived in this town for over 2 years and have visited it on a regular basis for most of my life, but I'd never seen it from this vantage point. It was beautiful! It was a hot day, but absolutely gorgeous!

How lucky am I to live here?

My two loves
After this we were all pretty hot so after a quick pit stop at the candy store, we went to a different park that had a spray park that the kid could play in and a lot of shade that Chris and I could hide in. I thought for sure the kid would want to play in the water more, but she ended up wanting to play on the playground with a bunch of kids that were there. She had a blast and we spend the entire afternoon outside. Next time, I definitely need to remember my camera so I can get better quality pictures than what my cellphone takes.

Anyways, I guess I should report my weigh in rather than keeping you in suspense (or was that my plan all along?!). I weighed in yesterday at 287.3 which is a 4.5lb loss this week! 4.5 lbs in a week...I haven't done that in so very very long. I guess you all were on to something with this calorie counting business!

Thursday, August 9, 2012

Girl's Night

We've all been there...girl's (or boy's night). The calorie laden, food fest with our nearest and dearest. While fun and something that is needed on occasion, it's definitely not diet friendly. Tonight my friend Jade came over. Her fiance and Chris are good friends (have been since kindergarten or something crazy like that) and they both work at the same place, on the same shift. Since the boys were at work and Jade and I were left to fend for ourselves for entertainment, we decided to get together.

Jade texted me this evening asking if I wanted to hang out and watch a movie. That sounded lovely. Relaxing on the couch with snacks and girl talk. Now before you scream at your computer screen "but Taryn, you've just gotten back on track! Don't blow it!"...RELAAAAAAAAAAAX. I didn't! I suggested that first we take Harley for a walk seeing as how he'd been driving me nuts since I got home from work (there is a fly in our house that we can't catch, and he's been chasing it all day). Seeing as how she's on a weight loss journey of her own before her wedding, she was up for it. We did a 2.5km walk before settling on the couch with our 100 calorie bags of popcorn and Diet Pepsi to watch Bridesmaids.

I also made the most yummy and calorie smart dinner. I made up a quick stirfry but was too damn lazy to make the rice so for 402 calories I had a plate full of chicken, onion, garlic, asparagus, red pepper, celery and snow peas cooked in EVOO and seasoned with salt, pepper and cayenne. Now, I must admit...I didn't miss the rice at all and I saved a bunch of calories. It was weird to have that mentality of "meh, screw it, it's not a big deal" but it felt good.

I have set myself up for success tomorrow by placing my workout clothes in the spare bathroom. Chris gets off work at 6am so I'll most definitely be awake before him, and seeing as how I wont be able to shower without waking him, I pretty much have nothing else to do...unless you count sitting on my butt or tidying the house...so I may as well work out.

I'm beginning to get the hang of the calorie counting. It's still a pain in the ass but it's doable. I still feel like I'm constantly thinking about food and I have to talk myself out of saving all my calories for supper so I can have something I know I shouldn't be eating. I've been doing fairly well at spreading my calories out through the day. However, when I work day shifts it's a little harder. I end up eating 2 smaller breakfasts rather than 1 regular sized breakfast because I'm up so early. But all in all, I don't necessarily think that's a bad thing if it's going to keep me from going overboard later.

Do you find yourself saving calories throughout the day? What are some of your favorite recipes for dinners under 500 calories?




Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Thunderstorms

While I find thunderstorms unbelievably fascinating, I do not find them enjoyable at 4:30 in the morning what so ever. I definitely could have used every single minute of sleep today. Work is crazy busy right now and with all the regular staff taking holidays (because it's summer, who doesn't want to take holidays!?), the residents are all "off" and require tons more attention and care. The staff also need that much more support, as most of them are casual and don't know the residents like the regular staff does.

I feel so cranky and crabby today. I know it's because I'm basically detoxing off the shitty food I've been eating lately and my body is getting used to the proper number of calories and proper foods. I feel like I'm constantly thinking about food...tracking food, figuring out what I can eat that fits within my calorie budget, thinking "hmmm if you don't eat this now, you can have something else later". It's such a weird way of thinking that is all new to me and it's kinda driving me crazy a little bit. And the situation with my backyard isn't helping either. It's been nearly 3 weeks and NOTHING has been done to repair the damage they did. Chris emailed the contractor twice now in the last week and finally got a response last night basically saying "I knew I shouldn't have trusted my brother with this, call me tomorrow if he hasn't showed up"...well it's tomorrow and he hasn't showed up. I'm getting so frickin irritated because now we HAVE to do some renovations back there, thus cancelling all foreseeable vacations, and we're apparently not a priority. This has affected my life and they don't care enough to do the job on time.

Basically I feel like my life right now is as unsettled as the atmosphere is during a thunderstorm. I feel like I'm always waiting for that bolt of lightening to strike me and shake up my whole world. And it's exhausting!

Yesterday, after getting off a night shift and having a shitty nap, I managed to talk myself into doing my workout on the treadmill like I had promised myself. I felt better than the day before but it still sucked. I also walked up to the college near my house (don't be toooo proud of me, it's really not that far!) because I was scheduled to renew my CPR certification. However, I was the ONLY person who showed up so the instructor said he wouldn't teach the course...but not before he made me sit there for nearly an hour waiting to "see if anybody shows up". I always get this really nauseous feeling following night shifts. I just really don't feel well...which is a great appetite suppressant, but definitely not all that healthy, and seeing as how I was supposed to be doing CPR until at least 9...I didn't really plan much of a dinner. So we ended up going to Subway. I ended up getting my usual, which I know isn't the healthiest it could be, but I didn't think it was all that bad...until I started plugging in the info into the Lose It! App...HOLY SMOKES...I seriously didn't realize that there was that many calories in a damn sandwich. Thank goodness it didn't put my over my calorie budget (I had 47 calories left!).

I know that this post sounds super whiney, and if you stayed reading through to the end, you're a saint. Today may have been a tough day, but who said they'd all be easy? We all know that's not the truth when it comes to weight loss. There are good and bad days, weeks, weigh ins and meals and we all have to learn to take the bad along with the good, realizing that without the bad, we truly wouldn't appreciate the good. I'm really trying to remember this.





Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Counting Calories

If I've said it once, I've said it a thousand times...I HATE COUNTING CALORIES. Yesterday was my first day back to eating right, tracking, and exercising. I logged back into my Lose It! app for the first time in months and logged every single calorie that went past my lips. What a pain to make a salad though. So while I was weighing lettuce and carrots and green onions I decided to just continue and I now have little packs of all the salad ingredients that I put in salads with the calories written on the bag so all I have to do is grab it, throw it on a plate and add up the numbers on the bags! That's a recipe for success right there.

I also did a treadmill workout...back to W1D1 of C25K...again. Holy smokes...I was so out of breath and tired following that workout. I was at the point where I was running for long periods of time and feeling good...now I'm almost dying running for 1 minute...makes me angry that I gave up. I was doing so well. But I will fight back and will get back to where I was, and farther. I really wish I lived in a big city or somewhere that there are a lot of 5K runs. Having a deadline definitely would keep me going. But there is nothing like that where I live...that I've found anyways. I'll definitely keep looking though.

I worked night shift last night, so after getting a little bit of sleep (and I do mean a little bit because I work day shift tomorrow so because I have to sleep tonight, I can't spend all day sleeping today). I always feel a little out of whack on these days, nauseous and craaaaaaaanky. I was using this as an excuse to sit around and do sweet fuck all all damn day long but not anymore. There is absolutely no excuse to not use the treadmill or go for a walk outside...and definitely no excuse to not eat properly and track (I swear the word track is becoming a swear word in my dictionary). So that's what I'm going to do today. That and catch up on some housework, laundry and blog reading.

Have a great day everybody!


Monday, August 6, 2012

Hopping Back On The Train

I did my weigh in on Saturday as I'd promised...and it just wasn't good. I weighed in at 291.8 which would be a gain of 4.9lbs since June 12th and about 10lbs over my lowest. I will be restarting the recording on my weigh in page (seen under the "rewards" tab). I had actually hit the 30 lb lost reward previously...but never did reward myself (hmmm self sabotage much???...I obviously didn't have a lot of faith in myself that I would be able to keep it off) but this time when I re-hit it, I will be rewarding myself.

Yesterday, I spent the day travelling to WA state to get groceries. My freezer and pantry are now PACKED with food, so there is no excuse for not eating properly (I had also stocked my fridge with fruits and veggies the day before). Today I started my day off right by beginning to count my calories. Oh how I loathe counting calories. It's such a pain in the ass. Yes I know it's necessary and I'm going to do it begrudgingly.

The good news is that I now have my most favorite dressing for my salad now so I can predict a LOT of salad in my future hehe.

So that's where I am, I'm just getting back into blogging and catching up on the blogs I read. I've been so pleased to hear that you all have been doing fantastic and have been focused and working hard. Lets just hope that some of your discipline rubs off on me!

I'm off to get on the treadmill then make a salad for lunch. Will update again tomorrow!