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Monday, November 18, 2013

Weekly Fitbit Report - November 18th

I had another great week this week when it comes to my activity. I recorded more steps and more miles than I did last week which is a great thing. Even though I've been feeling really run down lately (I've been working a lot), I've committed to using the 'mill at least 4 days per week, and I've exceeded that both weeks so far. Here's this weeks report:


Not too bad if I do say so myself. Weigh in is tomorrow and I was confident the other day...tonight I'm feeling as though I might be disappointed. I'm still super super bloated and just not feelin all that well. We will see I suppose. Stay tuned!

How was your week?

Sunday, November 17, 2013

Pre-work Workout

Last night Chris and I hosted a UFC fight night and our friends who just got married in June came over for dinner. I ate far too much and felt horrible at the end of the night. My digestive system woke me up early this morning and was none too pleased with the huge swing in dietary intake and I'm feeling slow and sluggish and bloated and blah today. The scale is also up 3lbs over night...and yes I know it's likely just due to the sodium. My fingers are so swollen that the rings that nearly fall off on a regular day may as we'll be glued onto my finger. Crap.

I have 2 days to flush my system of all this junk. And today I started that bright and early by sucking down bottles (reusable of course) of water and then getting on the treadmill. 


This is what I have accomplished so far today. My energy has been boosted a little, I don't feel as blah and every step I took helped get rid of some excess sodium. I still have a lot of damage control to do but I'm confident that I will not see a gain on the scale on weigh in day. I still have an 8 hour shift ahead of me and I will definitely be packing a smart supper. 

What is your post-foodfest routine to help get you back on track?

Thursday, November 14, 2013


Last night, Chris ruined my plans of going on the 'mill by spoiling me and taking me to the hot springs to relax. And in all honesty I probably needed it. I've been so focused on my diet and exercising that I haven't been taking any time to just chill. And I'm lucky to have somebody who loves me and can see that I need to stop and take a breath...and will make me do it. 

That being said, I was back at it today. Chris and I went to visit my grandparents who are babysitting my dog who lives with my parents while they're in Mexico. We took Axyl for a 30-40 minute walk, avoided the chocolate cake like the plague, then came home and I spent another hour on the treadmill after eating a healthy dinner. 

The only thing that has been bad about today, is the fact that I missed lunch because we were driving, so at 8:30pm I've eaten only about 1000 calories. I want to make sure I get about 1400...but I also don't want to eat crap just because I have the calories left. I've already had some cheese and some grapes but I have no idea what else I want to eat. If only I had this problem every day!!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Weekly Fitbit Report

Yesterday just after I finished posting my weigh in, I received my weekly email from Fitbit with my stats for the week. I'm going to try and post it here every week because I think it's awesome to see what I have done over such a short amount of time. I do not wear my Fitbit when I'm sleeping as the 2 nights I did, I found it bugged me and I was waking up because of it. So without further ado, he is my weekly report:


25 miles walked in 1 week!? I think that's pretty amazing seeing as how not long ago, I probably only walked 1/4 of that. Basically however far I walked at work was it. Even on my least active day (which was my rest day from the 'mill), I walked 2 miles at work (it was a slow night). 

I'm still logging all my calories and drinking oceans worth of water. I don't feel deprived, I don't feel weighed down after meals, and I have more energy. The 'mill is becoming just another part of my day, just like showering or brushing my teeth. I don't feel as though I've given up anything yet, I'm sure that will happen though. It's all how I deal with it when it does. 

Stay tuned, it's only just begun!

Monday, November 11, 2013

November 11 Weigh In

1 week ago I weighed in at 293.5 (a full 12lbs up from my lowest weight since the beginning of my journey). After a week of planning, tracking, exercising, and willpower I'm down 5.1lbs to 288.4. I know a substantial amount of that was water, but it's still something to be amazingly proud of. 

I have put more miles on this last week than I have in a long time. Having a show on netflix that I've told myself I can only watch while on the treadmill (a la Katie at I'm currently watching Orange is the New Black and am totally hooked. I actually got on the treadmill for a whole hour on a rest day simply because I wanted to find out what happened next!

I did have an extraordinarily hungry day yesterday so I did snack too much. I was over my calorie budget, not drastically, but still over which obviously isn't ideal (especially the day before weigh in!) but it happened and there's nothing I can do about it now other than move on and work hard this next week.

Another thing that has been helping is the ridiculous amount of water I've been drinking. Both Chris and I bought new water bottles and I've been drinking upwards of 88oz of water a day (if not more). I feel great...the extra trips to the bathroom kinda suck though. 

How has your week gone?

Friday, November 8, 2013

4 Days And Still Going Strong

For the past 4 days I have been logging my food, exercising and drinking lots of water (actually almost exclusively water...the only exception being my morning cup of caffeine that saves many lives). Yes, I'm hungry as I'm still adjusting to the lower calories, yes my legs are tired as I've put on many more miles than I'm used to, but I feel amazing. I feel strong, I feel confident, I feel...peaceful. 

I've made a plan, stuck to it, and forced myself to work out when I really just wanted to nap on the couch while watching reality TV with Chris. Having a show that I'm really in to to watch while on the treadmill helps. Orange is the new black has sucked me in and I've made a deal with myself that I can only watch it while I'm on the treadmill. That helped me so this today:

I was only at half that number of steps when I got home from work this evening so I think that's pretty good.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Back To Zumba

Today was the first day I've been back on track. Tracking meals, getting exercise, planning ahead. And I feel...proud. Proud that I've recognized that this downward spiral has got to stop. I mean, I worked so goddamn hard to lose the nearly 40 lbs I had lost...and here I am back to losing under 30lbs. Why would I do that to myself? Make myself redo the work I've already done because I was pure lazy. It  makes me angry when I think of it. Angry at myself for not believing in myself enough to continue on my journey, angry that I can so easily just give up, angry that no matter how much I want to be "normal", I never will be. But anger is futile. Sure it gives you something to do in the moment, but it's not getting you anywhere or changing anything.

Today, I tracked every morsel of food that passed my lips and came in at 1515 calories. But the real win was the calories out: over 3200 (according to my fitbit). I've gone 10800+ steps, up 7 flights of stairs (with at least 1 more to go to get to my bedroom), and over 4.8 miles. Not too shabby considering my morning mostly consisted of watching TV while Chris slept off a night shift. I made it to my first Zumba class in...well I can't even tell you how long. Because it's such a popular class, I have to be at the gym about half an hour early, so I ended up walking a mile on the treadmill prior to the Zumba class.

I've also planned out our meals for the next week and made a grocery list, with only the items we need on that list. Not having the crap in the house makes it impossible to eat things I shouldn't.

Today was the first day...And tomorrow will be the second.

Monday, November 4, 2013

Time For A Change

Something around here has to change. I haven't been following any sort of plan with neither food nor exercise, so it's no surprise that I've gained about 10lbs from my lowest weight and haven't been feeling the greatest. There's no excuse for it, just outright laziness.

I spoke with my husband last night, and both of us are feeling really crappy lately and we know it's due to our poor diet and lack of exercise. We've agreed that we need to make some changes and so today is the start of that. I'm going to be meal planning, calorie counting, and making time for exercise. I know that I've said this before and haven't followed through, but I really feel like my life, our lives, depend on it.

Things can't keep going the way they are. I've seen the end result of bad diet and no exercise. I don't want to be 40 something years old, diabetic and living in a long term care home because I've had a stroke and can no longer care for myself. I can't put my family through that.

I've got a lot on my plate right now (figuratively), with working 2 jobs, going back to school in January to start my ER specialty, having a family, running a household, and now putting our health as a priority. But I'm nothing if not ambitious and I find it easier to stay on track when I'm kept busy.

So here goes nothing...again.

Tuesday, June 4, 2013

Big Goals And A Weigh In

I printed out a calendar of the month of June (and July and August too), and set out a goal to average 60 minutes of exercise per day. That's 1800 minutes total over the month. The first day, I didn't quite get there, but every day since I have, and today even exceeded the 60 minutes (I have to make up the minutes I missed on day 1). I've also been eating much healthier than I had been...and the craziest thing is happening...I feel amazing!

I started out today exhausted, but then Harley and I went for a walk in the sunshine and I was much more energetic. When I got home, I went down onto the treadmill to finish my workout, took my iPad with me and watched the remainder of a documentary that I had started a few days ago. I'm finding that being distracted by watching something I'm interested in, rather than listening to music, makes the time pass quicker.

On our walk today, it was actually quite warm. 25*C, which after weeks of rain and chilly temperatures was welcomed. However, I procrastinated far too long and it was a bit too warm for my liking. I've asked Chris to remind me of that next time I try to procrastinate. Also, it turns out that living where I do and going for a walk is a little bit like being a mountain goat. On a 35 minute walk, my fitbit calculated that I climbed 21 flights of stairs! I didn't realize it was quite that hilly! No wonder Harley has barely moved since we got home.

I also have taken charge of my stomach issues and have started taking some supplements that are supposed to help balance things and so far it's been working. I haven't felt sick at all in the last week or so! Which is wonderful. I haven't felt this great in a really long time. Such a breath of fresh air.

Oh, I nearly forgot. Today was weigh in and I weighed in at 286.7 which is down 1.3lbs from my last weigh in and 29.2lbs down from my heaviest. I'm hoping this little self challenge will continue to make the scale go in the correct direction.

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Wishing I Had Better News

Well, we all know that silence on a weight loss blog is not a good thing. Well, in my case it's not bad, I haven't gained back any weight (ok, ok if we're being honest I weighed in today 0.2lbs above where I was last weigh in). I just really have not been feeling well at all.

I have some gastro issues and it's been really bad lately. I haven't been able to eat anything other than really really bland boring food (chicken, rice, bread, pasta, soup, etc) or I was paying the price....and on many occasion I was paying the price. It's been about 3 weeks of this. I have a doctors appointment next Tuesday to hopefully figure some things out. I've also contacted a holistic nutritionist who works with gastro issues like mine, weight loss, and hormonal imbalances (I have PCOS), among other things. Finances permitting, I will have a meeting or series of meetings with her to help me.

Looking forward to the month of June...and what a crazy month it's going to be. I'm working 6 days a week right now, we are going to be working on our yard, we have the wedding that we're both in (so there's a bunch that goes into that...appointments for hair, nails, etc and then having to actually help pull the whole thing off).

I have printed out a calendar and have committed myself to 60 minutes (at least!) of exercise per day and I am going to log my calories religiously. I started with the calories today and am right on track. I had a delicious supper of baked chicken, salad, asparagus and rice and am feeling pretty good right now...but we will see...

Worst thing ever happened yesterday. After Chris left for work at 5pm, I started cleaning the house. Ambitious I know! Anyways, I was scrubbing our bathtub when I heard a little splash and seen something dark in the tub and I realized that my fitbit had fallen out of its clip that was clipped to my bra and into the tub full of water. I fished it out right away, ran downstairs and threw it in a container full of uncooked rice and prayed for the best. It's only $100 to replace but's not like I just have hundreds of dollars laying around to spend willy nilly! I wasn't so much upset about it falling in the tub, but that it wasn't counting the activity I was doing! I clean the tub nearly first thing so it hadn't counted much at all! The GREAT news is that the rice worked and my fitbit is still good as new! Whew, dodged a bullet!

Well...On to June (and summer!) we go!

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Leash Training

I decided that it's time for Harley to become behaved on leash. Up until now he's been awful. He runs every which way, tries to chase bugs, has no car sense, and runs at people (which most consider scary but he's just so excited that he can't contain himself). So to practice we are going to go for a walk every night. Tonight by the end of it, Harley pretty much got it. He stayed on my heal and only occasionally would wander out too far and he would, although begrudgingly, sit on the sidewalk to wait to cross the street. I would have to push his bum down but he did it and he stayed sitting until I gave him the ok. So proud of my little guy.

I have been wearing my fitbit nearly daily and today I'm almost at my goals. Just a few more steps to go. I currently have nursing students at work (LOVE IT!!!) and they actually found it quite funny that there are days I can go home already having walked 4 miles and only needing to do 80ish more steps to get to my 10,000step/day goal. The girl I had today really got a lesson on what it's like to be a nurse. I got all of 5 minutes to sit down before 12:30pm. Tomorrow another student gets matched up with me and I'll put him/her through his/her paces. While we're on the topic of my job, I want to wish every single nurse out there a very happy nurses week. Please please please take the time out for yourself and treat yourself to some pampering. I'm going to wait until next week but I am pretty sure I see a pedicure in my near future.

The weather here in Canada has been absolutely gorgeous. We're talking summer weather at the beginning of May! I'm definitely not complaining, especially seeing as how we didn't get summer until August last year. Here's hoping this weather holds out for the wedding I'm in in June. Moisture and humidity is NOT this curly haired girl's friend...there's not enough hairspray in the world. It's so nice to be able to take advantage of the warm weather and get outside. A few days ago I even got into the backyard to rake and clean it up a little bit. Our landscaping project is going to begin in a couple weeks here so it was time to get it cleaned up, at least a little. We've decided to go a little more economically friendly way with finishing the backyard and save our money for other things but it should still look absolutely gorgeous when done...well...definitely better than what it looks like now!

What are you looking forward to this summer? I have to say the thing I'm looking forward to most is going for picnics at the beach and for J&K's wedding, and perhaps a little camping too!

Sunday, May 5, 2013

When All You Want To Do Is...

I had a terrible week last week. You may have noticed the absence on my blog. I got a little too loose with calorie counting, all those little bites went unaccounted for and there are complete days missing in my log. Is it any surprise that my weight was up? I was just far too ashamed to admit that I'd let that happen after being so focused and dedicated for a whole month. But that number on the scale was a HUGE eye opener and I pulled the reigns back in and my weight is back down this week.

I weighed in this week at 287.7 which is down 0.3lbs from 2 weeks ago and down 4.3lbs from last week...Eeek. Thank goodness it came off again as quickly as it went on. But I'm not going to assume that will always be the case (in fact, I already know that's not the case because it didn't take me all that long to balloon up to the weight I was, and it's taking FOREVER to come off...but Rome wasn't built in a day.

But as I sit here in shorts that were too small last summer I feel pretty good about how far I've come. I know I have a ways to go, but it's nice to bask in the glory of what I have already accomplished. I think taking time to celebrate the accomplishments along the way to the ultimate accomplishment is huge in keeping positive and motivated. Knowing that I'm less than 2 lbs away from reaching my 30lbs lost milestone (again) makes me want to keep going and to continue to make the best choices I can. \

This next couple weeks are really really busy for me. A lot of things that involve food, and partying. Ugh. It's so hard to be around "normal" people when you're in the process of losing weight. I'm dreading it greatly. But, I'm committed to doing this and do it I will!

On to May goals:

1) Track food 5 days/week
2) Exercise 3 days/week
3) Lose 10 lbs
4) Pay off 1/2 of my credit card

Friday, April 19, 2013

Weigh In - April 17th, 2013 And A New Fitbit

I have been wanting one forever and finally decided to bite the $100 bullet (well...$108 with taxes) and bought myself a fitbit. I think that being able to see just how active you actually are during the day is a great motivator. Underestimating how active you are, I'm guessing, is probably pretty common in those trying to lose weight. I'm almost positive I do it, but now there is going to be no question. I just got it yesterday and set it up this morning and have been wearing it around the house and I love checking to see my flower growing (the bigger the flower, the more active you've been). It's actually quite cute. I can actually see myself going up and down the stairs before bed just so I hit my daily goals. I think it's going to be fun to meet these challenges.

Yesterday Chris and I had a very rare, child-free day off together, so we went down to the states to get groceries and pick up some stock for our aquarium. I can't believe just how cheap groceries are down there. Even most fruits and veggies are cheaper, but we're not allowed to bring most of them back across the border, which sucks, but we did manage to stock our pantry and fridge. I had already gotten our fruits and veggies for the week previously so we're stocked up and I am able to make healthy, nutritious meals for the next week or so.

On to weigh in. I weighed in, again, exactly 1lb down at 288.0lbs. It was tough to take that I only lost 1lb after struggling so much the night previous and not giving in, but after a day or so to let it absorb I've realize that there is no reason I should feel ashamed or down about losing 1lb...I've lots 10lbs in 3 weeks. That's amazing! I still have 1 more weigh in before the end of the month and hopefully I'll be able to lose the 3lbs to meet my monthly goal....but even if I don't, I'll still weigh less at the end of the month than I did at the beginning, which is something to be proud of.

Lets revisit the goals shall we?

1) Lose 5 more lbs - 1 more down, 3 to go!
2) Blog at least 3 times - Complete! I even blogged to get through a rough night, which I don't think I've ever done before.
3) Log calories every day - Done...although I was over my calories yesterday because of being out of town and eating at restaurants...and making some poor choices.
4) Exercise 3 days per week - Well...I did get in a LOT of exercise one day...for like 6 hours or more...does that count as 3 days? No? Shit.
5) Vegetarian 2 days per week - I didn't accomplish this this week. I ran out of fresh veggies half way through my work week and just didn't have time to get to the store so I ended up eating lean cuisines at work, all of which had meat in them. Going to make sure that doesn't happen this week.

Finally, I would like to express my deepest sympathies to all of those affected by the two terrible events that took place in the states this week. Of course, I'm talking about the bombings at the Boston marathon, and the series of events following, and the explosion in West, Texas. Both such terrible and horrific things. I hope that the remaining suspect is found alive and that those affected by the acts that he took part in can get some answers and some closure.

Tuesday, April 16, 2013


I'm having a rough day today. I don't know what it is but I just want to eat anything and everything I can get my hands on. I'm not feeling overly stressed, unhappy, anxious or anything, just a little tired (but who's not used to that!?). Weigh in is tomorrow and I don't want to sabotage it. HEEELP!

Sunday, April 14, 2013

Altered Perceptions

Today while at work I had quite the interesting chat with a care aid in the lunch room. As I was munching away on my apple she proudly displayed her healthy lunch of a spinach salad with strawberry vinegarette...then proceeded to purchase a coke (the big ones that a equivalent to 2 cans, a bag of cheezies and a chocolate bar. In that one meal she managed to consume more calories than I'd eaten in my breakfast AND lunch. She justified that by saying that she hadn't eaten anything yet, and that for supper she would only have a small sandwich for dinner. I said that I stick to 1600 calories per day, and she said she would probably "land around there" too. My quick math says that there was about 1000 calories in that and even if she was to only consume 600 more calories...what kind of nutritional value was there? Society is so screwed up when it comes to diet and calories.

Now I'm not saying I will never eat a chocolate bar or cheezies or chips again, or that I will never drink pop again...probably not 3 in the same sitting, mind you...but what really bothered me was her attitude of "I'm still going to eat only 1600 calories and the weight will just fall off (she had previously told me she wants to lose 50lbs). Sure losing weight is part of my goal...but most importantly I want to be healthy. And to be healthy we need proper nutrition. I don't know, perhaps I'm being a little critical but I just wanted to shake my head and smack her in the head.

Do your co-workers/friends make shitty decisions with food then bitch about their weight? If so how do you stop yourself from going into full on lecture mode?

Friday, April 12, 2013

A Very, Very Busy Day

Oh my gosh I am so tired. Today was one of my days off but I definitely did not do much relaxing.

I most definitely got a workout. Something about spring makes me want to have my house be clean and fresh and light. Well I dusted, scrubbed, vacuumed, folded, put away, sorted and mopped for the better part of the day. I definitely worked up quite a sweat (especially when vacuuming the stairs). I would have loved to have a fitbit or something of the sort to see exactly how active I was today.

There is actually still a lot to do. Our basement needs to be cleaned and organized and hopefully some shelving built. Our spare bedroom needs to be cleaned out and emptied of its contents in the event that it becomes an actual bedroom in the future. I need to get my current dining room set photographed and ads placed online so that when my new dining room set arrives we can just have it set up. We currently have 3 filing boxes that need to become 1, and don't even get me started on Chris's half of the closet. Still sooo much work to do. But I did get a large portion of it done today. And then I cooked supper!!!!

I am feeling amazing these days. I'm inching ever closer to being back at my lowest weight that I have been at, I have mor energy, counting calories is still a pain but I do it and I am making healthier choices. I may never be able to eat instinctively and I'll never be like "normal" people who don't have to be very conscious of what they eat, but this is my new normal...and it's not so bad.

We are still over 2 months out from the wedding, and I'm hoping I will be at least another 20lbs down. If that's the case we may be making an emergency run to the bridal store to reorder my dress in a smaller size. But likely it will just need to be tailored. It was going to need to be anyways.

How is your spring cleaning going? What projects do you have on the go?

Thursday, April 11, 2013

Weigh In - April 9th, 2013

Well this post is ONLY 2 days late...not too bad for my crazy life. This past week was nuts. I was so so so sick. It's been a while since I was so sick that I literally could not get out of bed to pee. It took me until about 11am to get up, and I only did then because the dog was crying because he had to pee and I was about 5 seconds away from peeing the bed. I spent the rest of the day with my ass planted firmly on the couch...and making not so wise food choices. I was hungry, but I had absolutely no energy so I grabbed easy things, and some what comforting foods. I did eat some fruits and veggies and tracked my calories for part of the day before I just gave up because I was grumpy and whiney.

The next day, I was feeling about 200 times better than the day before and actually made it to work, I still sounded like Kermit the Frog and was very low on energy but the calorie counting began again. Now, I know only 1 day of poor eating isn't the end of the world but it really sucks when you've been doing so well and were seeing results, and as a nurse I know that during illness your body uses up more calories trying to fight that illness (still no excuse to eat an entire box of mac and cheese...which I didn't!...but I still did eat more calories than I should have). Oh well! The real victory was getting back on track the very next day.

So on to weigh in. I knew going in to this week that I wouldn't see a huge loss on the scale seeing as how I saw an 8lb loss last week. I would have been happy with any amount of loss. I always think back to The Biggest Loser and week 2 is infamously tough on the contestants. Same thing here, but I'm on with it. A loss is a loss and a step in the right direction. I was down exactly 1lb this week, weighing in at 289.0lbs. 

Let's revisit the monthly goals shall we!?

1) Lose at least 5 more lbs (13 lbs total) - 1 down, 4 to go!
2) Blog at least 3 times per week - Complete! I blogged exactly 3 times.
3) Log calories daily for the whole month - Craaaaap...I missed the day when I was sick...and a day where I forgot my phone...OOPS! more missing from today on!
4) Exercise at least 3 times per week - This did not happen. Even though I was feeling better, I still was quite low on energy and have spent a good portion of the week sleeping when I wasn't at work or doing things I HAD to do. I did take the child and the dog for a walk the other day...and that was more work mentally than anything. The dog was going nuts, the child wanted to walk the dog but he was pulling her everywhere and there were a few times that she almost bailed because she was running behind the dog in the rain boots she absolutely insisted on wearing...and the god the questions...I don't think she stopped talking the entire time haha.
5) Vegetarian days at least 2 times per week - Complete! I did 2 consecutive days on my evening shifts at work. It's easier when I don't have the meat loving man to feed. Apparently vegetables are what food its and he must have animal protein at least once per day...MEN haha.

How was your week? What are your goals/plans for this week?

Thursday, April 4, 2013

A Wrench In My Plans

I had such a wonderful plan for today. I had planned to go to Zumba and clean my house top to bottom along with staying on track food wise. Well lets just say thank goodness I prepped my lunch yesterday because late last night I got the familiar scratch in my throat that immediately precedes a cold. I didn't feel too horrible last night and even very early this morning (4:45am), but when I woke up at 8 I felt as though I'd been hit by a truck of death. I have absolutely NO energy and all I want to do is go to sleep. However, because I must sleep tonight to make it to work tomorrow, I'm going to be forcing myself to stay awake. I have done a few things around the house. Walking downstairs to switch the laundry over leaves me breathless - and I haven't even tried to carry a basket of laundry upstairs yet! I also sliced up a container of strawberries to dry in the oven for snacks, but other than that I haven't really moved off the couch. I do have to figure out what I'm going to make for supper, although I'd really just love to order a pizza or something. But we won't be doing that at all!

There is no way I'm going to break my two week streak at counting and being at my calorie levels. Even though my appetite is non-existent right now, there is something about being sick that makes you want comfort a warm hug in a bowl. But calorie counting makes you accountable. You can absolutely have a bowl of mac and long as you account for it and make it fit within your day. That's something I'm not willing to do at this point though, because I know that feeling as shitty as I do, I would be able to just have 1 serving of KD.

So basically, my plan for the day is to get the things I need to get done done and to relax and hopefully allow myself to get a little bit better so that I can make it through my work day tomorrow. I do NOT want to call in sick tomorrow at all. But if I just can't...I need to listen to my body. We shall see.

What is your favorite comfort food?

Wednesday, April 3, 2013

First Crack At Quinoa

I took an extra shift at work tonight so today's not a typical day for me. I got up at a decent time. I was awake and out of bed by 9am - I don't think that's too bad for a "day off" - and stepped on the scale as per my daily routine, and I was excited to see that the scales are still heading in the right direction even after a big loss. After showering I came downstairs for a nice healthy but satisfying breakfast of peanut butter on an english muffin and cantaloupe (my current favorite fruit - I had SUCH a craving for it!). Lunch was a salad with chicken, which is another weird craving. I definitely find that I'm craving healthier food these days...and I think that's because my brain has finally realized that the healthier I eat, the more I get to eat.

After I had lunch I chopped up and started roasting some veggies - carrots, cauliflower, onion, bell peppers, and celery to have for dinner tonight and lunch tomorrow. That's when I decided to try something I never had before. Yesterday at the grocery store I decided, on a whim, to buy quinoa. It's super easy to cook, cooks quickly and I tasted a little spoonful of it and it tastes pretty good too. I'll see what it's like with the veggies later tonight though.

Tomorrow is day 14 of counting calories and I have yet to go over my 1600 calorie/day budget. I have also found that the best way for me to stay under budget is to plan out what I'm going to eat for the day. Once it's all put into my phone, it's too much of a pain in the ass to take it out and put different things in. In this case, lazy is good. Is that terrible to admit!?

You've all seen my weight loss goal for April (13lbs - I've already lost 8lbs)...What are your goals?

Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Weigh In - April 1st, 2013

Well, it was that time of the week yesterday. Weigh in day. Previously I would dread stepping on the scale for that "official" number that I must report on my blog but this week I was excited. I knew there would be a substantial loss because I'd stayed on track and either at or slightly under my calorie budget for the day. Even the cookie that I impulsively ate (gotta work on that!) fit in...and I logged it so I don't feel all that horribly about it. What did make me feel shitty was the fact that when faced with it, I couldn't say no. I had one, and only one and to my credit I turned down ice cream later that night instead of thinking "ah well I already ate a cookie I may as well...". I by no means think that I'm going to be perfect, but I do want to be able to have control. I am a bit of a control freak when I'm determined to do something.

So yesterday started early for me when I felt the fingertips of a wide awake 4-year old tickling my back at 7am (I had worked until 11pm the night before and ended up not getting into bed until after 1 because I had to hide the Easter treats and wind down from work), but after the treats were found and breakfast was served, I headed up to face the scale. I stepped on and waited for the number to show...290.0. I'd lost exactly 8lbs in 8 days simply by counting calories and being accountable. Not bad If I do say so myself.

Now, I do know that I'm not going to lose 8lbs every week and that a large portion of this loss was water weight and my body going "holy shit woman what the hell!?", but it is definitely the motivator that I needed to keep going.

Also being the beginning of the month, I feel as though it's a perfect time to lay out some monthly goals!

1) Lose at least 5 more lbs (13 lbs total)
2) Blog at least 3 times per week
3) Log calories daily for the whole month
4) Exercise at least 3 times per week
5) Vegetarian days at least 2 times per week

I will visit these goals each weigh day and then of course, come the beginning of May, I will evaluate and then write goals for the next month.

Here's to spring (the weather here has been absolutely gorgeous! Yesterday my weather station said 27*C/84*F)! Spring always feels so clean and fresh and new and energizing. Slightly metaphorical to how I'm feeling with this whole weight loss journey.

Friday, March 29, 2013

A Healthy Desert

Today the majority of my food was fruits and veggies so I had a lot of calories left over after supper (just over 500) and I was really in the mood for something desert-y. What's a girl to do? I chopped up an apple (galas are my favorite), sprinkled it with a half teaspoon ground cinnamon, a packet of Splenda, and threw it in the microwave for 1 minute to soften the apple then topped it with 1/3 cup Special K granola and 1/3 cup fat free Cool Whip. Let me tell you, it tasted EXACTLY like apple crisp. Hot, sweet, crunchy, creamy, spicy, absolutely perfect. 278 calories of perfect and none of the butter, sugar, and flour.

I still have 2 more days until weigh day and I am absolutely THRILLED with how this week has gone. I know I've lost...and it's a significant loss. Unless I go crazy and eat a jar of salt...I'm sure to see a big drop, which will be a great motivator. I'm not disillusioning myself though. I know that the first week is always a big drop so I know that this won't be the norm, but like I said, any loss is a step in the right direction.

I must also say that my man is amazing. He is being so so so supportive. I made it very clear to him that I need his help with this. I cant have him bringing stuff I have no willpower against into the house. Tonight before work he was making his dinner and he looked at me and asked "will it be ok if I make fries?" Hahaha. He's so cute. Of course I let him. Fries aren't a huge trigger for me, because I know I can make better tasting ones in my oven if I really want to.

What are your favourite recipe makeovers?

Thursday, March 28, 2013

One Week

One week of logging calories every single day. That's a new record for me! As much as I find it a pain in the ass to do, it really keeps you accountable to what you are putting in your body. I have learned VERY quickly that the healthier you eat, the more you get to eat. In my head I always knew that, but I chose to ignore it on some level. I figured I was eating healthy, but admittedly I am a meat lover, and I NEVER had an appropriate portion of meat. However, now that I'm counting the calories in it, I see exactly why I should have been all along. Yes I may have had a small potato and a salad with my meal...but when there's 700+ calories of steak on your're not saving that meal from being calorie laden.

Now onto the numbers. In the past week my calorie counts have been between 1385-1594. I started my week out a little weird as my weigh day isn't until Monday. I'm still going to stick to the 8 day week because that's my schedule. I work 4 on 4 off and always weigh in on my first day off. That way I'm able to weigh in at the same time every "week" and provide myself somewhat of a routine. With that being said...I pretty much weigh myself every day, but only count the one on my official weigh day. It might be a bit obsessive but at this point in my journey, it's something I need to do. On my first day off last week, I weighed in at 298.0lbs. This is my starting point. My prior attempts at weight loss were not successful. This does not make me a failure, though. It makes me wiser. I've made a lot of mistakes, and I've learned from them. I've learned that I can't expect to be at my goal weight over night. I've learned that there WILL be gains, there WILL be weeks of little progress, there WILL be set backs. But there also will be weeks of tremendous success and that every pound down is a pound in the right direction, it is a pound closer to my goals, and a pound closer to new possibilities. And that's something to be proud of.

I just turned 27 a few weeks ago, and I'm done with being obese. I'm not going to spend another birthday feeling the way I do. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin, I'm embarrassed, and I just don't want to be seen. I try to hide. And I'm sick of it. I'm sick of it all. I want to be the confident person I know I am down deep inside. I don't want to be the one behind the camera. I want a piece of the spotlight. I want to get family photographs done and not feel like I'm going to be wasting money because I know I won't like how I look in them (probably the #1 reason we don't have family pictures). I'm over it all.

What has being overweight/obese held you back from doing?

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Busy Days Made Better By Tea

These past couple days have been super busy for me...even though they were days off. Yesterday I decided to clean up the front of the house. I washed my car, hosed off the driveway and in front of the driveway (because I live in a part of a small town that gets neglected, so the street sweeper won't be up here for another month or so). washed all the front windows outside, hosed down the front porch and began raking the backyard. However, the backyard is still too wet to start getting it into tip-top condition yet. Today, I did laundry and cleaned the house from top to bottom, including cleaning up the spare bedroom closet that has become a dumping ground for everything that doesn't have a place. I'm going to be putting a couple things up for sale to de-clutter and I got rid of a LOT.

I like to think that I was being productive, which I was, but in reality, I was using it as a distraction. I know that counting calories is the way to make weight loss happen and that by keeping busy, you're keeping your body moving which burns calories (eat less, move more = weight loss...oh if only it was that simple!), but counting calories has me constantly thinking about food. What I want to eat, how many calories are in it, how I can save calories, what substitutes I can make....on and on and on. It kinda drives me crazy. I wish that I could instinctively KNOW what to eat and not have to worry about it...but that's what got me to this weight in the first place. So obviously that doesn't work for me.

I find nights the worst. Usually in the evening, Chris and I would hang out and watch whatever shows we've recorded with whatever snack we'd scrounge up (think high carb, salty, fatty). Now, the same routine...except the snacks. Depending on my day, I may have some calories left for a 100cal bag of popcorn or even a weight watchers ice cream, but not always. And it certainly isn't a replacement for the Doritos I so desperately want. But slowly but surely this routine will be broken. And I'm awaiting a little help. My mom went and visited David's Tea and I got her to buy me 3 different flavours and a steeper. I have Katie at to thank for this. She mentioned it on her blog a while ago and since then I haven't been able to stop thinking about it. The teas I got are red velvet cake, salted caramel and a coconut oolong. They sound like the perfect something sweet at the end of the day. And the best part is that none of their teas are more than 5 calories per cup...basically negligible as you'll probably burn more calories preparing and drinking it than what's in the cup. I absolutely can not wait to get this tea! Who would have thought that I'd be excited over something as silly as tea...I must be getting old.

I must also profess my love for Pinterest these days. Not only is it really distracting, there are a ton of amazing ideas on it! I had been craving pizza for a few days and low and behold...Pinterest came to the rescue. For lunch today I made a "pizzadilla" a quesadilla with pizza filling! 314 calories and it satisfied the pizza craving. I probably could have made it less calories because I found that there was too much cheese and a little too much sauce. But it was still AH-MAZING.

I'm going to leave this post asking a couple questions of my faithful readers...those of you that are still here anyways:

1) What is your favourite night time snack that is low in calories but will satisfy that "snacky" mood??

2) What is your favourite distraction technique??

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

How Do You Spell Accountability?

Apparently...b-l-o-g. Seems like when I'm posting to my blog on a regular basis, I keep myself in check and stay on track. But then I get lazy about it and let the blog go by the wayside, exercise soon follows, then the healthy eating, and before we know it I'm back to old habits. That all changed a few days ago though. I started counting calories again. I'm on day 5 of every morsel of anything passing my lips being tracked into an app, the crankiness has passed (thank goodness, I was so grumpy that I didn't want to see or talk to anybody), and I'm starting to feel really good. I've also lost over 6 lbs in those 5 days.

Not only am I motivated, I'm determined to keep at it this time, for very specific reasons. One being that I'm in a wedding in June and that dress HAS to fit (seeing as how it's already in my closet!). I am already lighter than I was when I bought it though so that's good. I do have to get it altered as well. I'm very pear shaped. I carry most of my weight around my hips and thighs and I probably could have smuggled a watermelon in the top of that dress where the bottom fit perfectly. The wedding is June 22nd, so just under 3 months away. And I want to look good in the photos.

I've also signed up for Sparkpeople (my ID is tarynmarchi) so that I can figure out nutritional information for the dinners I cook. My last attempts at calorie counting were half hearted. If I couldn't easily figure it out (ie search for it and have everything figured out for me, or use a recipe where everything was already figured out) I wouldn't log it. Which is difficult when you're used to cooking and adding ingredients that have calories and then only taking a portion of what you made. But now I have no excuse.

I've also determined that Chris is NOT allowed to go shopping with me because he BEGS to go down the chip aisle, which for me is just much easier to avoid. He did well though...I had to pull out the puppy dog eyes and nearly break down in tears in the middle of the grocery store to not have to go down that aisle but he gave in and didn't make me. And he didn't go down the aisle and pick himself out a bag of chips either! Good boy.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm back, I'm here to stay, and I need people to call me on my bullshit when I disappear or start to justify my shitty behaviours. So...Here we go again.

Friday, February 8, 2013

Spaghetti Squash

I have to say I'm in love...and with a vegetable at that! Spaghetti squash may just be the best thing ever...along with tomato and cucumber salad which is just heavenly. Last night I made a scrumptious spaghetti sauce (ground turkey, onion, garlic, peppers, celery, herbs and spices, tomato paste and tomato sauce) and made sure to make extra so I could have left overs. Chris is working night shift tonight and tomorrow so I'm on my own for dinner which means I can eat whatever I want. Normally I wouldn't even think of serving spaghetti squash instead of pasta because Chris would look at me like I had 3 heads and would tell me that "this is what food eats" but it's the perfect way to increase vegetable intake and decrease carbohydrates.

I'm also going to put my recipe for the tomato and cucumber salad on my recipes tab if you're interested. It's super yummy.

Today was a really busy day at work and I'm exhausted so I'm going to keep this short and hit the hay. Gnight all.

Thursday, February 7, 2013

It's Been A While

I've been trying to find a way to start this post several times over the last little bit but just haven't been able to show my face around the blogosphere. I've been that typical weight loss blogger who comes out guns a'blazin for the first little bit only to peter out faster than the pizza delivery boy can be at the front door. Well, ok, maybe it's not that bad. I haven't gained any weight since the last time I've been around...I've even lost a few more pounds. It's just all been in the last week or so since I've been back on track. Before that, I've been half-assing it. I've come to learn that for right now I need to not worry so much about working like crazy and making money, I need to worry about my health and spending time with my family. Not only do I feel like I've been a failure at weight loss, I feel as though I've been neglecting my family. Add that to the fact that whenever I start working more hours I end up getting sick. I've had more than my fair share of colds this year and I've had enough!

I've been working hard at switching my diet back over to a healthy, whole food, balanced diet but there has been some recent changes in my perspective. I got in to watching documentaries on Netflix lately and not only have my eyes been opened but I've shed a few tears in the process.

The first documentary I watched was "Hungry For Change" ( This documentary talks about the diet, weight loss and food industry. Let's just say it's maddening to hear how we, as consumers, are manipulated into what we buy and eat and how the weight loss industry works. It left me so mad! I highly recommend anybody who's currently trying to lose weight, considering losing weight and or has lost weight watch this documentary.

Second, I watched "Vegucated" ( which takes 3 meat eaters/lovers and challenges them to become vegan for 6 weeks all the while educating them about the food industry and how animals are treated while they're either being raised for meat or producing the products (eggs and milk) that we consume. This film left me sobbing like a 2 year old and have already, in the last 24 hours, made some changes to my diet because of the images displayed.

Finally, I watched "Fat, Sick And Nearly Dead" ( which follows a charismatic Aussie named Joe who does a 60 day juice fast (using juice he makes himself), to cure his body from the autoimmune disease he had been suffering with for nearly a decade. In 60 days he lost nearly 100lbs, his autoimmune disease went into remission AND he inspired many people along the way to follow in his footsteps. The results of his challenge were amazing and what a transformation.

All 3 of these documentaries have really inspired me to make some changes in my life. I don't think there's anybody who could watch these films and be unchanged by them. They were that powerful. (In full disclosure, I had just stumbled upon these documentaries on Netflix, I was not contacted by the makers of the film, nor was I compensated. My opinions are, as they always are, my own and completely honest).

Ok, enough of the heavy stuff. I know you all have been dying to know what I've been up to as of late. Well we, of course, had the whirlwind that was Christmas, then 2 and a half weeks later it was Chris's birthday, then 2 weeks after that it was my stepdaughter's birthday, and in just 11 days Chris and I are heading to the fabulous city of Las Vegas, NV!!!! I'm so excited I can hardly contain myself. This next week is a busy one as I had to do a bunch of shift trading to get the time off to go, but it's totally worth it.

Also, I got myself a gym pass!!! I've been using it for cardio, weight training and drop in classes. It's been super fun and the fact that I've shelled out money for this piece of plastic with an AWFUL picture of myself, I best use it! And I have been. The fact that I was so stiff I could barely walk for 2 days is proof! I have a few gym buddies so I'm not often left to my own devices (which is good because I HATE going to the gym alone, I need the moral support), but on the chance that I don't have a gym buddy, I've been working out at home on the treadmill or putting my favorite Christmas present to use (The entire Zumba DVD set!). I feel great, have more energy and am already seeing results both in the mirror and on the scale. It's exciting stuff!

How about you guys? I've been keeping up on the blog reading so I kind of have an idea but I would love to hear from you in the comments section!